work? life?

Some days I really love working. And other days, I really miss my daughter. This has been one of those weeks where my ability to balance life is impossible.

I have been extremely busy at work this week. I put a lot of pressure on myself to succeed. I want to do well in whatever task I take on. Not to mention we have a few lucrative contest happening that I really want to win!! So I have been putting in extra hours, not only physically, but mentally. I find myself lost in thought or prayer constantly about work. What else can I do to drive results? How can I work harder to open more doors? Where are my areas of opportunity? 

Then comes the life part. Juliana has really missed me this week, and I have missed her too. She tells Michael: momma working. momma busy. momma come back. And when I see her she is stuck to me like glue. She tells me she misses me. She gives me a million hugs and kisses. I love every single moment. I miss the hell out of her. I get sad that I don't get to see her at the gym. Or the museum. Or on new adventures. I am lucky that Michael is a photography addict and will send me pictures and videos to try and capture the moment. I live for those and wait everyday. I ask him if he has any he didn't send me.

 I also miss my husband. I miss the time we get to share together - The olympics and my gymnastics obsession ( I will write about that another time), really cut into our time! I miss long talks with no interruptions. I miss just being and laughing together. And the intimacy that we sometimes struggle to find the time to share. Thankful for table topic cards that have forced us to talk, open up, and spend time together even when we both are too tired to think.

But then comes that time when I need "me" time. And lately, my girls have not been able to meet me for happy hour. I have been looking forward to those by Wednesday of every week, so when they don't happen, I feel burned out. So I have decided that I need to find something else to satisfy myself one night per week. I don't want it to be something I have to do every week as my work schedule is too unpredictable. But do you guys have any suggestions for things I could do?

So, while having a stay at home dad helps me balance life and work, sometimes, one of these gets more of my attention and I feel guilty for letting the other ones slip!